Chaos to Cosmos
The path from chaos to cosmos was discovered by telling one's life story

Monday, 6 June 2011

Monday, 6 Jun 2011


Having trouble with pins and needles and my legs and feet going to sleep. Couldn’t stand. Tired as usual, but manage to list some items to sell on Ebay – done while lying down in bed, of course.

Tuesday, 7 Jun 2011

Really couldn’t move or get out of bed this morning. Utterly exhausted. Knees hurt much more than usual. Legs hurt. Too painful to have laptop on lap. Ache and sore all over due to humidity. Soreness on right foot has increased again. Extensive IBS attack in the afternoon left me feeling totally drained and with unbearable back pain including that deep pain in my left kidney area - that had me rushed to hospital in Tenerife back in 1995 - and that always comes back with flares. Feel an overall anxiety that I can’t really identify or shake at the moment.

Wednesday, 8 Jun 2011

Woke up exhausted, unable to concentrate even on reading emails. Had breakfast then lay back down again and went back to sleep. Still got dull ache in left kidney area. Still feel physically wiped out as if I’d been run over by a steam-roller. Laying in bed, feel as if I’ve been stuck in place and that gravity has been doubled. Pain is defying the meds again, but don’t want to get into the habit of taking more, leaving nothing extra for the future or emergencies.

Thursday, 9 Jun 2011

Really achy again this morning, with pain not responding to meds at all. Back feels broken, so had to put on support. Joints all feel swollen and are clicking painfully again. Not really up to it physically, but had to go out to counselling appointment again in the afternoon.

Friday, 10 Jun 2011

Very sore this morning. Neck and back pain bad after yesterday’s outing. Couldn’t get comfortable in bed as pain was too severe and in too many places to get into a position that I could relax and that didn’t cause additional pain. Everything is sore, even resting limbs on the bed clothes hurts. Nothing is responding to meds. Knees too sore to walk on.

Saturday, 11 Jun 2011

Woke up early morning with an unbearable pain in the centre of my chest. Legs hurt. Walk to kitchen felt like a marathon. Wiped out and feel very sick and unwell (malaise). Had to spend the day lying down again.

Sunday, 12 Jun 2011

Headache that started a couple of days ago just won’t go. Light hurts. Sore throat. Hoarse. Back hurts. Neck hurts. Had to lie down in a darkened room.