Chaos to Cosmos
The path from chaos to cosmos was discovered by telling one's life story

Monday, 18 April 2011

Monday, 18 Apr 2011


The better for deciding to rest yesterday with no items assigned from my to-do list. Pain and fatigue levels were tolerable today. With careful pacing, I could keep them at this level, PROVIDED I’m permitted to keep activity and stress levels down. This, of course, is impossible. The moment mother came home, the whinging – about matters that were of no concern or application to me – started. She constantly pushed open the bedroom door and interrupted my rest to tell me something I did not need to know and was of no interest to me. Where I had felt quite content, I began to feel incredibly stressed and began to develop yet another headache. This sounds like nothing here, but she is impossible to ignore, will not stop and it’s like some sort of drip, drip, drip torture.

Tuesday, 19 Apr 2011

Neck pain got bad again once pain relief effects ran out. It was not improved by sleep. Stress and melodrama from mother is definitely not helping.

Wednesday, 20 Apr 2011

Had trouble getting comfortable in bed last night. Everything feels tender and bruised. Hip and leg pain particularly troubling, preventing me from finding a relaxing position in order to be able to fall asleep. Wrists, hands and feet all feel weak and painful today too.

Thursday, 21 Apr 2011

Incessant coughing with chest pains – coincides with weather warning for asthma. Glands swollen in neck and sore throat. Pain in hands still disabling. Legs and feet still painful. Everything is an effort, physically due to the pain lack of energy. Counselling appointment in the afternoon, so I had to walk there and sit for a long time. Can only hope that the benefits of the counselling will outweigh, but just getting there does cause considerable pain and fatigue in the following days.

Friday, 22 Apr 2011

Didn’t get to sleep until after 4am because of the pain caused by the outing yesterday. Cats still wanted breakfast at 9am, so I wasn’t able to get enough sleep. Spent the day doing nothing, slowly, as I was too tired and strung out even to be able to move, much less concentrate.

Saturday, 23 Apr 2011

Slept OK last night, once I’d remembered meds at about 1am, but still wasn’t able to get enough sleep to make a difference. Whilst pain is a little better today, I’m still exhausted and extremely woozy.

Sunday, 24 Apr 2011

Woke up early – why, on a Sunday? This means my meagre energy will run out that much earlier. Hip is uncomfortable. Bad headache with disturbed vision.

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